Watch behind-the-scenes as we make a movie almost every season.
About the Series – What You’ll See in Season One Testimony
What a spiritually sick person looks like from God’s perspective. (Mark 2:17)
How Far Along Am I?
God wants me to release each episode as we complete it. I’m not sure the exact timeframe in which the first episode will be complete, but I would guess within the next couple of months.
The first episode is a rundown on how God came to me and transformed my life over a year’s time, and then ultimately asks me to accuse myself before the world.
The remaining eps (2-8) are the accusations.
I won’t give it away, but let me just say if you think God is boring, you won’t by the time season one ends.
Since He writes and directs this series, it really gives you a good idea of how He takes an understated approach and makes it metaphorically compelling.
Remember, He’s the Creator of everything, so having an amazing imagination isn’t difficult for Him.
At First, I was Really Scared…
… About doing this series, until He began to lay out each episode. And I was very surprised by His approach.
I started getting excited.
Since I’m the bad guy, I get to play the bad guy in this story.
Me.It’s my life story.You will see what a truly spiritually sick person looks like.
The Lure of Evil Desires
12 God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. 13 And remember, when you are being tempted, do not say, “God is tempting me.” God is never tempted to do wrong,[a] and he never tempts anyone else. 14 Temptation comes from our own desires, which entice us and drag us away. 15 These desires give birth to sinful actions. And when sin is allowed to grow, it gives birth to death.
– James 1:12-15 (NLT)
The Dangers of Temptation
Temptation comes from evil desires inside us, not from God. It begins with an evil thought and becomes sin when we dwell on the thought and allow it to become an action. Like a snowball rolling downhill, sin grows more destructive the more we let it have its way. The best time to stop a temptation is before it is too strong or moving too fast to control. See Matthew 4:1-11; 1 Corinthians 10:13; and 2 Timothy 2:22 for more about escaping temptation.
– James 1:12-15 (NLT) FN
What you will see is what I looked like to God over a span of years when He read my heart.
Out of it came…
And on the screen, He exposes me as a…
A spiritual criminal…
… That becomes hard-hearted, embracing hate and escalating in brutality as I drown in another sin, from one episode to the next.
Until I become Satanic.
Wrathful toward God. And very close to rejecting the Holy Spirit.
Where Did I Go Wrong?
God wants you to run to Him with ALL of your problems. He will be there for you when no one else is!
(Hebrews 4:14-16 NLT)
Honestly? It happened one sin at a time. First, I excused one thing and then the next and the next. And progressively, I became a worse person for it.
God’s Anger at Sin
21 Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. 22 Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools. 23 And instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people and birds and animals and reptiles.
24 So God abandoned them to do whatever shameful things their hearts desired. As a result, they did vile and degrading things with each other’s bodies. 25 They traded the truth about God for a lie. So they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen. 26 That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires. Even the women turned against the natural way to have sex and instead indulged in sex with each other. 27 And the men, instead of having normal sexual relations with women, burned with lust for each other. Men did shameful things with other men, and as a result of this sin, they suffered within themselves the penalty they deserved.
28 Since they thought it foolish to acknowledge God, he abandoned them to their foolish thinking and let them do things that should never be done. 29 Their lives became full of every kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, murder, quarreling, deception, malicious behavior, and gossip. 30 They are backstabbers, haters of God, insolent, proud, and boastful. They invent new ways of sinning, and they disobey their parents. 31 They refuse to understand, break their promises, are heartless, and have no mercy. 32 They know God’s justice requires that those who do these things deserve to die, yet they do them anyway. Worse yet, they encourage others to do them, too.
– Romans 1:21-32 (NLT)
The Downward Spiral of Sin
Paul clearly portrays the inevitable downward spiral into sin. First, people reject God; next, they make up their own ideas of what a god should be and do; then they fall into every kind of wickedness: greed, hate, envy, murder, quarreling, deception, malicious behavior, and gossip. Finally, they grow to hate God and encourage others to do so. God does not cause this steady progression toward evil. Rather, when people reject him, he allows them to live as they choose. God gives them over or permits them to experience the natural consequences of their sin. Once caught in the downward spiral, no one can pull himself or herself out. Sinners must trust Christ alone to deliver them from destruction and put them on the path of salvation.
– Romans 1:21-32 (NLT) FN
I gradually transitioned from backslider to rebellious sinner.I was a victim in some areas of my life in the beginning.
But later I made purposeful choices that rejected God’s help. I was angry at Him and would play passive-aggressive games with Him, because I blamed Him for the long-suffering He allowed in my life.
I would throw spiritual tantrums. He would tell me He had blessings in store for me, and I would say, “I don’t believe you,” and turn my back on Him.
Or I would respond with cynical quips. Like, “When? Fifty years from now? No thanks, I don’t need your help. You like to watch people burn.”
It was human to be angry with God, but rather than talk it out with Him in prayer, I preferred to just to be a spiritual brat.
My anger, though not necessarily righteous, was totally understandable.
But my reaction was unfair.
I preferred to take digs at God like a child, rather than grow up as a spiritual adult and ask Him to help me get through the suffering, heal me from the pain and learn to love Him regardless of my outward circumstances.
I blamed God because He was “the good guy.” You know, it was the classic case of, “How can a good God let this happen?”
When the answer is simple.
He will work through the hearts of each of us and try to get us to stop sinning, so that we don’t hurt others.
But He will NOT renege on the free-will-promise He gave us.
So, He doesn’t just sit by and let things happen. He makes every effort to try to get US not to do these things.
When we don’t listen, we hurt others.
My life was not God’s fault. My life was my fault, and the fault of the sins of others around me.
The blame lied where it lay. In front of me…
… and around me.
From the sins I committed, and the sins that those around me chose to commit.
I could have chosen to look at it through honest lenses, and then that would have given me an understanding that I needed to ask God for forgiveness of the sins I committed that hurt me and hurt others.
And ask Him to help me forgive those who sinned and hurt me. (Luke 1:38 NIV)
Want to know when the series airs?
Tameka, I’d love to stay connected. Shoot me an email me when the series airs…
How to Get Saved
That if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
For with the heart one believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made, resulting in salvation.
Strictly Necessary Cookies
Strictly Necessary Cookie should be enabled at all times so that we can save your preferences for cookie settings.
If you disable this cookie, we will not be able to save your preferences. This means that every time you visit this website you will need to enable or disable cookies again.